A couple of days ago I was really just overwhelmed with this whole past year. Since I left for college last August, I have been stretched, pushed, and several times even defeated and crushed in every single area of my life. Physically, emotionally, intellectually, spiritually, relationally - everything. So many changes. I went to a brand new school, 4 hours away from my parents and friends, where I knew no one - I took harder classes than I had ever taken before - several relationships in my life went from amazing to completely sucking - I came to Colorado where I basically knew no one - I became a river guide, which is extremely physically demanding - not to mention tendonitis, stitches, and a bunch of little things that add up very quickly. And I am honestly just exhausted - worn out - broken - empty. And the reality of that just came crashing down the other day. I talked to my brother, who experienced basically the same thing a year or two ago, and it was so nice. I ended up purposefully just hanging out and doing nothing all day (I had the day off). I embroidered a dolphin onto a t-shirt for SB while I watched a movie, then I went for a 3 - 3.5 mile run. And then I talked to my parent's for a while, and I went to bed relatively early (1030ish).
I woke up the next morning feeling so much better. I had a whole new outlook on this summer and this upcoming year. Even though this time in my life just sucks sometimes, if not most of the time, it's the only way to grow. And it's how God shows me that He's sufficient - his grace is new every morning - his steadfast love never fails.
Anyways, today just may be the best day ever. I checked out this morning (meaning that I had my first commercial trip and I passed), so I am now officially a guide. Jeff was in the boat right in front of me, and Matt Wertz was in our pod, so I performed my bus safety talk for him. And then I had lunch, hang out with some girls at the Red, and then went to New Bee's (a thrift store in town), and found a puffy vest. Now long story short - I have been looking for a puffy vest all summer. Of course I am very picky about it and I did not want to spend $100+ on the Patagonia one that is the most appealing to me, so this vest is perfect, for now. The one I got today is navy blue, with a zipper, but also snaps, and also pockets on the side. And it was $2. No big deal.
Oh, here are some pictures from the past week.
Drew Holcomb and I holding my trophy.
Ladies. And Khavari.
Me and Jeff, before my first commercial.
Jordan and I in matching onesies.
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